omg hey i never use this app anymore but friends how do you hit up your best friend from high school and be like fam you’re a babe teach me how to do winged eyeliner that well when you haven’t talked in a year+
hey it’s been like a year but i have good news
i’m in love. like madly fucking in love with someone. he doesn’t love me but that’s okay, he wants to be with me still and calls me a princess and makes me feel like the most special person on the planet and tells me every day how thankful he is for me to be in his life. and i was worried for a while that i loved him for how he treats me, not him, until i wrote him a letter today and i was writing down everything about him that makes me happy and all his little quirks and his dimples and the fact that he’s never listened to destiny’s child but he keeps an nsync cd in his car at all times and i cried because i’m so blessed to have someone in my life i love this much. i cried at 2:30 in the morning thinking about a future with him and i could picture us getting married and i want to be there every night he gets home from work and cook for him and push him away in the early mornings if he tries to get me to go to the gym with him. he’s taking the test to become a police officer in march and i want to be there every night hoping he’ll come home safe and i want to sit up at 6am and drink coffee with him before he goes to work and tell him i love him every day before he leaves. i am so stupidly head over heels for this guy and i want to show him that for the rest of my life and i hope one day he’ll feel the same way. he got excited earlier because i mentioned he’s the only one that’ll be able to carry me up and down stairs after i get surgery friday and all he cared about was that he’ll get to carry me around. i made him a valentine’s day card about his favorite spongebob episode and he fell asleep on my lap after i made risotto for him and he kept opening his eyes and looking at me and then falling back asleep. he cried when jasper died in breaking dawn pt 2 and again during the credits when a thousand years played and i just sat there singing it and holding him. he doesn’t mind me singing every beatles song in across the universe and is one of the most positive people i know and all he wants to do is good things for people. i love him i love him i love him
hi i’m still alive and i know nobody reads these so i feel comfortable putting it out there
i’m really fucking struggling again. i ate 339 calories today and i feel like that was too much. i feel guilty whenever i eat and my body consistently makes me cry
i’m scared to ask for help because i want to feel better but i know eating doesn’t make me feel better and that’s all anyone is going to tell me to do
at the same time if i’m allowed to go back to dance team next semester i need to get better bc i can’t pass out during practices cause they’d make me stop dancing
i wanna be back at school where i can starve myself all i want and burn every calorie off at the gym bc ryan was the one that made sure i ate every day but he’s gonna be in an apartment and amy and i are in a dorm so i’m safe next semester
i don’t know what to do till then and i’m in a lot of pain and i’m scared again
your mom didn’t let you chill in the womb for 9 months so you could degrade women
(via mirrorsstartowhisper)
Ideal date: laying in ur bed showing u all my favorite songs
c-3po is a really relatable character to me because like theres no practical reason to give a robot an anxiety disorder, and yet here we are
(Source: reyohnaka, via thebuddhistjedi)
Me: *stares into the void*
The Void: *stares back*
Me: *winks*
The Void: *blushes*
The Void: *stares back*
Me: *winks*
The Void: *blushes*